I’ve been so happy lately no drama, no boys everything has been so positive I’m doing better in college, so I’ve been hanging out with my girls enjoying ourselves it’s been nothing but laughs I don’t know what I would do without these girls in my life. Dan has tried to get through to me on Facebook I didn’t reply to his messages he is so annoying he’s commenting my pictures, leaving posts on my wall talk about get over it. He finally messaged me one last time saying "since you don’t want to know me I’m going to leave you alone" relief!! He deleted me off his page but I really do not care I wanted that anyway not like he will be missed out of the 696 other friends on there. let’s see negatives hmmm well there is one thing I had an argument with one of my girls she said I’ve been way too grumpy and just being a bitch to everyone of course I didn’t like that at all and told her drop dead (I really didn’t mean it, it was a spare of the moment thing I reacted way too quickly) I can understand where she is coming from because my mom has said the same thing but like I said before care free I live for myself.
so in college today they were talking to us about this clinic for teenagers between 13 and 19 called the daisy's what teenager would want to find themselves in a place like that how embarrassing everyone knowing your business and the way these girls talk these days everybody is a hoe everybody "oh that girl lost her virginity she is such a hoe" oh please back story she lost it to a guy you like so you have decided to add the label hoe to her name because you can’t have him haterz! Liz really wanted to go to the clinic to get a check up and as usual she asked me to go with her, she considers me as the cool friend who is down for whatever (but don’t get it twisted I do have my limits) I decided to go with her anyway guess I could do with a check up too it wouldn’t hurt.
we got to the clinic and to my surprise there were a lot of girls there but what shocked me was that they were all in uniform's I mean really all these girls in high school are (lets use an adult word) sexually active the statistics are just going up by the minute, I see girls just laughing and joking about being there its' nothing funny they could go in that room and come out with information that they have an STD, they could be pregnant or the worst on the list have HIV/AIDS damn if that ever happened to me I think I would die prematurely it wouldn’t need to kill me slowly because I would be dead already. We went to the desk and the receptionist was surprisingly upbeat, for someone that has to work there she seemed a bit too happy for my liking guess she was tryna make everyone feel a bit more comfy. she asked me my name, address and phone number I didn’t see the point in telling her everything it wasn’t like they were that important so I changed my name and address but kept my age and number yes I know what you’re thinking what was the point it made sense to me at the time ok! She gave me a bottle and told me to pee in it; I find that very nasty like who likes doing that ewww still did it anyway but still ewww. we sat there for a good hour waiting for our names to be called I was getting sick of minding this pee in the bottle just wanted to get rid of that thing before I threw up. She finally called my name "Jessica Smith" yes I used my enemies name seemed funny at the time.
she took me into a small room and sat me down she wasn’t as welcoming as the receptionist she looked at me like a typical teen, she wasn’t so good to look at too I don’t know what her problem is, I hope she hurry's up because her attitude is gonna make me slap the education out of her stupid nurse. she was asking some stupid questions I didn’t find it relevant to what I came for "when was your last period, when was the last time you were sexually active" but I still answered anyway and I knew what she was getting at... pregnancy of course I’m not pregnant but she asked me if I wanted to take a test I answered quickly just to rush this whole event I just wanted to get out of this room. we sat there waiting for the results to come up she looked at it and looked at me then she got up and went into her draw across the room and took out some flyers, she came back to me and sat right in front of me with a caring look in her eyes, what was this woman about to tell me my heart started beating outrageously fast she came out with "it came up positive" I laughed, it didn’t really register in my head what she was saying I thought maybe this was some sort of nurses humor but it wasn’t very funny I looked up and her face was dead serious I stopped laughing at that point OMG I’m pregnant the words just kept going through my head over and over again I’m pregnant, she gave me these flyers to help me make a decision on my next step adoption, abortion and of course keeping the baby I had no idea what I was going to do I came here to check on my health status I wasn’t expecting this at all, I have something growing inside me that’s a huge problem. I left the room and walked straight outside Liz came behind me talking about how the nurse asked her if she wanted a pregnancy test she said yes just to make sure and her test was negative I started crying she asked me what was wrong I whispered softly "I’m pregnant" she looked at me so shocked and hugged me tight, after that emotional scene she asked me "who’s the dad?" then it hit me, I completely blanked out "Sash who’s the dad?" I thought in my head Dan is the father, my one night has left me with the consequences.... WHY?
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