It’s my first scan today and I’m actually excited, it was weird walking into a hospital without someone actually dying or in pain I saw a new side to the medical world a positive side life was being welcomed into the world, there were a lot of mums with their husbands/boyfriends and it didn’t really bother me that much I just wanted to know how my baby was doing. my mid-wife was freaky looking she looked like she was the geek in her school back in the day but never actually grew out of it looks like those are still the same glasses she wore too I could just imagine the label on it 1977 or something or maybe she’s older than that I don’t know but she’s nice, I expected her to treat me like crap considering I’m a teen mom well I don’t feel it’s that bad I am 19 but it’s still frowned upon especially because the area I live in is Christian orientated it’s more of the sex before marriage part that bothers them most but they respect me for not having an abortion so I’m good. Who really cares what anyone else has to say anyway it’s my life and I will live it however I want to. Emily hasn’t spoken to me much since she found out my decision she’s not too pleased but if she was really my friend she would be here for me so I’m not going to force my friendship on her if she doesn’t want it then so be it.
They called my name Liz got up I think she was a little too excited about this maybe even more than I am but I’m glad for the support. We entered a cozy room down the hall it was kind of dark but that didn’t bother me I just wanted to get on with it. The nurse laid me back and squeeze some gel like thing on my belly it was freezing she said it was called well I can’t really remember so moving on. Took her a while to find the baby it was getting me a bit scared/anxious I thought something might be wrong but she assured me that everything was fine. "there it is" she said she turned up the volume it was like watching a movie and as soon as I heard the baby's heart beat tears fell from my eyes I could believe it that’s life.
After all that excitement it was time to go home she gave me a photo to carry with me of the baby it looked like a tiny peanut was growing in me it’s amazing to know that will grow into a human soon and it’s up to me to take care of it till its 18 god that’s a long time but I’m sure it will all be worth it in the end. as soon as I got home I couldn’t wait to share my experience with my mom I knew she had been through all of that before with me but it felt nice talking about it to her and she seemed excited too that’s a good sign right. I really felt like I needed to go to sleep who knew this lil thing could drain me out so quickly, so I went straight to my bed id had enough excitement for one day.
It was around 2 am when I felt my phone vibrating who the hell could be calling me at this time are they crazy, I picked up the phone without even looking at it "hello who’s this" I asked "its Dan" I felt paralyzed by the shock that was the last person I expected to hear from why is he calling me now "did you get rid of it then" oh so he’s calling to make sure that this problem has gone away typical man doesn’t surprise me I suppose he was acting like a complete ass when I told him I was pregnant "no I’ve decided to keep it" he remained silent and I could help but grin imagining the horrified look on his face right now I wish he was here in flesh so I can experience that glorious moment "good I was hoping you hadn’t" hold on did he just say what I thought he just said I had to ask him to repeat himself just in case I didn’t hear properly "I was thinking and, I shouldn’t have spoken to you in that manner..." wow he sounds educated maybe he aint as dumb as I thought he was "... since you have decided to keep the baby I will support you on this so don’t be afraid to call me if you need anything ok" I was stunned didn’t even know what to say I just closed the conversation by saying "ok" he said a quick goodbye and hung up the phone. it took me hours literally to get back to sleep did that really just happen that’s like the icing on the cake I just hope everything will run smoothly from now on.
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